The leaves are changing and I love it! No signs of me missing LA. I love the change of seasons because it gives me an excuse to hit the refresh button. Instead of complaining about things, I always want to find a solution and way to make it better. I love to give myself a concrete goal that is defined as much as possible. I'm working on commitment- more to the things that I commit to than to people. I am not a relationship kind of gal and I like to keep it that way. Failure is a habit and I consider breaking commitment a form of failure. Lately I have been in limbo and moved into a new apartment, broke up with someone, working nonstop, lots of excuses I know. So when I commit to something I want to be able to see it through. The reason I haven't been able to follow through lately is because of things like my new apartment being far from the train, for example. I ended up bailing out of a show because of how long it would take / I didn't give myself enough time. Since my goal is commitment, the steps I will need to take is basically to weed out the excuses that I make so that I can fully commit to my decisions and passions.
Basically I'm just working on myself, per usual. I realized that a lot of people I ended up regret letting into my life, so I started focusing on myself instead. I wrote a big post on a guy that I liked, and another on one that I dated. Big whoop. I deleted the drafts and wrote about fashion instead. There's no point to focusing on things that don't matter. Starve your distractions. Focus on being positive to attract the right things, and staying close to what makes you feel alive.